Evening well it s here :) not feeling so bad right now pain in my boobs has started to go away since I started wearing a bra... and have noticed that they are getting bigger and bigger but thats what I want :) plus I have started to wear what I want when I go out and to my amazement no one says anything I thought I would get ripped to bits but no... so now the test is to push it one bit more.. oh and I got some lovely new boots today ...
What do you think :) you cant go wrong with New Rocks they should go well with my ripped leggings and long jumper... well lets hope so photos will follow tomorrow... I should get a nice black skirt I think to match them get the whole goth look going again... and give people something to look at lol
I also think its about time other people find out about me, people I see every day... but that I will let the other half do for me as I would probably just flop my boobs out and say "well what do you think" not sure that is the best way to do things.... well off for a bath now (photos to follow) :) and then its ebay to buy a new skirt to go with my new boots... well a girl has to shop and I love to shop... might just get a see through top too just for my blog photos :) its good to show a little flesh from time to time and you cant go wrong with a bit of nipple can you ;) well night night xxx
Just taken a new photo lol hope it looks ok.... not sure everyone will think so bu what the hell I dress worse going to the shops.. well here it is plus boobs are growing fast :)
its been a long day had to come home early as the baby decided he wanted to wake the hotel up at 5am think it was lucky we where in bed early.. not sure I would stay in a hotel like that again.. no bloody food just crap microwave burgers.. what a load of crap.. I did get a nice new coat so I guess it was not all that bad.. but as soon as we got home I go and do it again I get changed why I dont know why the hell do I worry what people think of me this is now starting to piss me right off.. one day I might be true to my self .... just wish that day would hurry up as its getting warmer and I cant wear a coat for much longer and there is no hiding the boobs now not even if I wanted too... and again why the hell should I god this is soooooo starting to get me down if any one knows how I can stop being a shit bag please help me and let me know because I feel like I am going backwards.... well off to bed need sleep and I hope I am not up again at 5am cant be doing with the bags under my eyes......
Going away today for the night to derby with the little man and other half should be fun :) if phone is working as it should I can update there and I hope with photos :) just hoping I dont get beat up with what I am wearing lol well a see through top and black bra is not that bad as I say if you have them show them off and I have them :) just in two minds over the heals and thats only because they might hurt a little but we will see... well going check for updates with photos later xxx
think i just might go into town today and buy something nice.. just thinking what do i need MMmm right .... some new tops should do the trick and some shoes.... always need new shoes... need Eye brows done too and could do with some new makeup and a jacket... Woohooo shoping time
its been one hell of a trying week what with the little one ending up in A&E and worrying about the unborn little one I have not had time to stop and think... but all is going ok now fingers crossed.. I do need to stop letting things get on top of me but its hard... I know who I am but just cant get that little push to move it along I wish someone would just push me and make me do it but I dont think that will ever happen... I did get some new boots today well I say new Ebay is the only place to get what I want :) a nice pair of very old boots think they are from the 60s and they made me look a lot taller today well at least 6 foot anyway.... I am still getting a little pissed off at my life only because I dont know where to go or what to do.. and I have no one to help me :( cant be arsed what my family think at all they can kiss my back side if they have a problem with me as I dont need anything in my life like that and will not have my kids put through peoples views that are negative in any way at all... I am TRANSSEXUAL and to tell the truth I love it :) but hate having to hide away I am still doing it now every day I just need to get over that bit and just go with it... if m lovely other half has any ideas or can help I would love it but she is a little dizzy at times if you know what I mean :) buts I love her......... well off to shave my legs and to take my pills... night all xxxxx
What is it like to be Transsexual... well I will tell you what it is like for me every day, start with family my family... they dont like it one bit they think it will all go away if its not talked about well no it fucking will not you stupid stupid people... every day I wake up and go to sleep with this on my mind.... I have not been updating this because of you and now I am at the point where I am about to burst and this is not my fault.... I feel like I am going back to the way I was before and I dont want to... I am still hiding away all the time all I see is dark I just wish I could see a little light at the end but no its not there... if my family where a little more open instead of being ignorant my life would have been a little better... now I dont know what to do any more I feel lost I just want to be me so much... all my life I have been there for others why cant I just get a little back now... or am I asking too much.. I see others every day getting on with there life and loving it.. why cant this be me.... this I have not even told my other half... most nights I lie in bed and cry because I feel so low about it all... why should I be doing this at my age I could be dead tomorrow.... but I must to keep people happy and that is what counts... my happiness will never come in to it, it never has never will..... but on a nice note I got a lovely signed photo from Donna Whitbread.... thank you Donna very much... x well going now and will update now every day and hope people who dont like me for me rot in hell before falling over and snapping there little finger and grazing there right elbow... and then slipping in cow shit..... Love you all lots dont take it all to heart now will you...
I will do a big update soon I have so much going on right now what with the baby teething band just finding out our new baby could have downs my head is all over the place... not that some people give a shit.. but what the hell sad bastards.. well lol sorry about that update will be here soon dont forget to donate to Donnas fund look to the left under the blog for page :)
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