Not feeling so good tonight, I think I just might be coming down with a cold or something, just hope its goes soon its Birmingham Pride on Saturday, and I have to pick my daughter up on Monday so being Ill is not an option at all... its time for some lemsip and hope for the best, and a good nights sleep..... right off I go to make myself better..... Night all :) xx
Right I need to lose 2st so the hard work starts Friday, lets hope it works this is something I am not going to give up on, after seeing loads of slim girls today and thinking "this is how I should be looking " and also think its time to stop SMOKING I need to get in shape I am going to try for a size 8 I am now size 1o and need to get more gone.... I will start the Hula hoop Friday and I can believe how much it cost lol I so cant wait to start this now might even start belly dancing too... ;) I will make sure I look different by November or even September .........
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Jackie Green will take to the stage tonight at the beauty pageant’s semi-finals in Leicester, after winning a public vote in the heats earlier this month.
The 18-year-old — who was born Jack but has lived as a girl since the age of ten — was asked to enter by modelling scouts who had no idea of her history.
She became the UK’s youngest transsexual after an op in Thailand on her 16th birthday.
Just got home from town we went shopping for new makeup and ended up getting 3 lots and clothes too... some very very tight black trousers, my bum should look great in them lol... also some tops... yes and they are see through, just the way I like it... think I might be a bit of a tart at heart..... :) just put photo up look below..... xxxx more to follow soon..
It's so nice to be out the house we are at a lovely garden centre and after that we at off for lunch at a park... Just my luck the sun has come out now :( ...
Right day one I will be sorting doctors, and name out today this is the first step.... I will be taking step 2 I hope next week. As for today I am a little happy that the sun has decided to stay in bed it is still bloody warm but not half as bad as it has been....
I do think it is time I went to the doctors now its been long enough, I do think I have come a long way in the last year and right now feel like I have stopped... and I dont want to stop I need to keep moving forward, I dont want to go back to the way I was, I will die before I do... some people need to just now take it that I am not a male... and I will not and I mean will not tolerate any discrimination in any way or form whats so ever... if you cant accept me as me then your a sad sad person... I now know 100% what I want and where I want to go.... I NO longer live as I did last year I NO longer own anything male what so ever... even people around me know me as Karla and I am now being treated as female even by doctors who could not tell the difference, I was asked today how my pregnancy with my son went lol this is what I have wanted for so long, I also need to change my name fully to Karla this is a must as the old person I was is now dead, and cant come back... I feel so alive now in mind and body.... this is something I never thought would happen, what is needed now is to come out fully to the whole world and this is going to start with my family... now they can accept me or run and hide away the choice is in there hands, and if I get any crap like last time I will post it in the local papers and have fucking done with it, I am fed up with being told WHAT TO AND WHAT NO TO DO!! I know there is a lot of hate in the world for people like me, but I could get hit by a boat tomorrow or a low flying bird you never know... life is way to short to let family dictate who I can be... so the first thing I am going to do is see a doctor then its time to come out fully to everyone... this I will be doing in the next weeks... and dont try the fucking emotional black male!! not going to work this time... remember I am a woman and with that comes the BITCH inside.. night all xxxxx
Just at the school getting kids then off for an ice cream Mmm, not sure why the weather has to be so hot I can't wait for it to cool down a little this week, I am not used to having hair, I have always shaved it, and I was going to shave it again bu decided to keep it lol... It's taken just on a year to grow it this long... I have been working on a new logo for the site all done "what do to think?" I like it just not sure it goes with the colour of the site... Xx
I did not get much sleep last night just hope tonight is a little better, the baby is awake and playing in his cot, well I hope it is him or the step son is talking to himself again lol... we went off to the park for a bit today... but the heat was a little much for the little man so we come home we where there for a bit and he had fun, tomorrow is going to be an other hot one and for once I do not know what to wear... think I need to sort out all my stuff now... well I am going to bed I am fooked and the heat is not helping at all......... sleep time Zzzzzz
I am awake again the little one is having one of his coughing fits.. hope by opening his window this has done the trick, the heat is stupid not used to it here in the uk at all... where is our cold weather, I need to try and sleep as I want to pop out in the morning.. so of to the land of nod for me :) xx
Home now we went out for a drink, this is the first time in about 8 months we have been out on our own without kids!! it will be better if we get to go out in the night I have not shown Karla to the night life.... and I do need a nice short dress... that is the next thing on my mind me thinks........ also I am off to the doctors next week I need this all sorting now xx
Last night was one of the worst nights I have ever had, my little boy had a very bad fall and we had to call an ambulance I don't think I have ever been that worried before in my life, I never want to go through that ever again. Everything is ok now he is back to normal his head has gone down just a bad bump now... It makes you look at life so different when something like that happens, my stupid worries about what people think of me is nothing to the worry I had, this is a good lesson I think... No matter how worried you are there is always something worse that could happen... I could not live without my boy he is my world.... Well all back to normality today and I can update... I am even collecting a laptop later... So I can get to work on the new sites, my pc is a pain to use as its up the stairs and I hate running up and down all day lol "yes I am a lazy sod" :) xxx
Back home now the heat is so sooooo silly even with shorts on and thin top I was still so hot, think I need to start wearing a skirt now when going out, and to tell the truth, I think I easy pass now people do not even look I think I was the one with the problem I was looking for people looking at me some o he time, this I know is stupid as if I am gorpng at people they are going to gorp back lol... Think I just might go bond nex as I act it sometimes... Sorry to any blond people your smat really.. :) well got to pop out to the school soon... And it's getting hotter and hotter... Might jus put a little bra top on got to keep cool in the weather xxxxx
I am out and about shopping not sure the see through top was a good idea lol well the shorts look good... I was feeling great but feel a little uneasy now and want to go home... So will update when I Get there
Today has been so hot I tried new makeup and my god it was crap, it's no good in hot weather, I will be going back to my old one tomorrow.... And tomorrow is going to be good we are going shopping to a big shopping centre. I have 3 new skirts to choose from woooohoooo.. And then I have the problem of choosing what shoes or boots to wear, what ever I wear I will look good :) xx
What a morning got up to my hair looking like I had been chucked in a hedge!! a quick shower fixed that easy... I also used the Neutrogena wave duo.. My god it makes your skin so soft, and also removes black heads, I have had one for ages on my face but now today it has gone, well worth a look at they are not expensive at all, I have also got some new makeup to try I will let you know if it is any good... Just had an idea I am going to put a review part on the site, I will let people know about products I use and I use a lot lol and give ratings on them.. There is so much crap on the market right now, right this is my plan for today after my trip into town :) xxx
Today has been a good one, one of the best I have had for some time I got to see my other half happy, she needs to be spoilt more I think as she is the most wonderful person I have even know, with out her I would be nothing at all, she has been a rock for me over the last year. I now feel I could take on the world as karla and I intend too..... Well I am off to bed I need my sleep for tomorrow... Night all xxx
What a day the weather is so good, yes a little hot but not so bad right now, I have been in shorts all day, and my legs feel cool... I think the trip into town today has been good for me as I now don't give a dam well for now I don't, can't see this. Changing.... For the first time in my life I was feeling right :) can't wait for tomorrow. Now xxx
And I was still warm, my god it's hot it's going to have to be my skirt tomorrow or even a bit later.....
What a hot hot day it is today lucky I have my skimpy shorts and little top on... I am just in town with the love of my life.. It's her birthday and I am taking her for a nice breakfast, then off shopping :) xx taking some nice photos too will see if any good and post x
Just going to bed now and it's still soooo hot not sure I am going to sleep tonight, I did make a pair of shorts for tomorrow they are a little skimpy but what the hell... Better to make them than buy... Because when I crap out going anywhere not lost much cash.... I have not got around to putting the stuff on eBay, I will be doing it tomorrow some time xxx
Just a little fed up at the minuet first of all I have no that's zero access to anything when out, but that's not the only thing, I wanted to wear something different today because it was hot... And I was nice and cool for a bit.. Then had to change out of what I had on.. I have decided just to not bother any more and selling a lot of clothes.. All will be listed on eBay tonight or tomorrow, inc skirts, tops, boots and shoes... I will pop a link to eBay as soon as I have listed them... It's about time I started to realise this is something I can't and can never do... Just feel like crying I am so feeling trapped with it all...
Being Transgender or Gay is not a choice, being Transphobic or Homophobic is, so don't be a Twonk