I have just put up the money tips part to the site :) I have lots more to add over the next day or so, everything on the site is 100% safe so go and save some cash and win some competitions...
I have just put my face mask on and it bloody hurt like hell.. deep cleansing my back side more like burn the crap out of your skin.. it better not leave a rash or i will be going back the shop and giving them hell lol... also it looks like we will be getting the garden done tomorrow :) the kids need money.. we will not just give them it they must work for it, how else will they learn :)
Thats Tea on well I did the potato's... my beautiful lady did the rest.. what a great cook she is.. but I sure I am forgetting something... I will remember when its to late lol as always.
not much on tonight think it is just sit and watch some Tv and I might even update the site a bit more.. I still need to get the money part up and running..... so keep a close eye on that hopefully it should be on tonight :) scrap that just remembered I have a face mask to do :) I can do both I am sure..so pop back later and take a look this will save and make you money....
for some reason I have sesame street in my head.. we went the market and got one or 5 bits and bobs :) I got some shoes.. not new.. because why should I waste cash on new when I don't need too :) oh and some great Art books... we almost run out of fuel now that was not funny.. in the middle of nowhere lucky we got to a station and got some... I did forget to get nail polish :( this I need asap
What a nice day it is outside :) I was woken by birds singing make a change from the baby shouting at me lol
I had very bad cramp in my leg last night and today it is killing me, I have not had cramp like that for years. right baby is up the sun is out, not staying in I want out of this house for a bit today...I need to make a note in my head, I need nail polish remover today so off to the market I think, then home for a nice roast dinner.. Chicken Mmmmm and
its a little late I am still wide awake and so is the baby he thinks its time to play..... I will be going to bed very soon in hope I can sleep.. that is the last time I sleep at 9pm again silly me lol.....well good night I a sure I will be up very soon with baby but its su
its late and I am wide awake.. think the sleep I had tonight on the chair has messed with my bed time... but happy it did I now get to watch all the 80s chart hits on tv .... and had a nice bath and all that.. should have shaved my legs,, but my knee is hurting where I knocked it,, so will have to wait a day or 2.. I do hate body hair makes me feel sick.. its dirty.... I did have a nice tea home made burgers and chips.. and lots of chocolate and one or two energy drinks.. I am so glad my head has cleared up its taken days to think clear again.. I will not let that happen again I am now starting to get my life on track again.. that's if I can get someone to send a bloody email that I have been asking for...... for ages it will be done quicker.........
Thank god we are home that was the worst drive I have done in a long time.... and to top it all of I have a big lump on my knee now!! that's what I get for banging it silly me... and its so stupid hot I must get changed into something a bit cooler me thinks.. I do hope its not this hot tomorrow or hide away I will :)
I am up had a nice little sleep in it was much needed I think, I have a long drive to do today, so must keep the coffee coming I do hate this drive but it has to be done think I will be on the road about 5 hours, I must get a move on I need to sort the face out :) and get ready... I have also just put a news part on the site take a look.. I will be updating all the time with serious and funny news from around the world... well must dash things to do.... and remember with great beauty comes great responsibly..
Think I best get to bed now... starting to get chest pains.. and I dont think its the good kind of ones... lol if you can get good ones that is... sure it is just sleep I need and a mixture of caffeine to boot... so good night sleep tight ...... love you lots jelly totts......and all that :)
My god I need sleep I have had about 3 hours sleep in just on 24 hours... no wonder I am seeing things lol I am off out tomorrow on the M6 for a nice long drive.. would love to go and see some friends but I dont have the cash to do this :( think we will be best to keep to what we need to do only, unless people want to come and see us :) Well I am starting to feel a little better tonight stress is all but gone I hope... I know this is not going to be easy but I did think I was stronger to handle it.. well I am not that strong I have found out.. but who cares, Not Me.. I am going to continue what it is I have been doing as I know I am happy.. I do like happy... :) this drive tomorrow is going to be a little hard n me if I dont get any sleep tonight so think I would be best to get my arse off this computer and sleep.. just before I go I have just watched the new captain america film.. it is one hell of a good film.. it does go on tor ages.. think about 2 and a half hours, but it is great from start to finish... Harry potter tomorrow I think, then Zookeeper... :) well going for now if you see anymor updates tonight tell me off as I need sleep lol Night Night xx
What a bloody day it has been... most of it I have felt like hurting something not sure what.. but I found out its best not to butt doors, the hard way.. I know there are people who read this who are going through the same.. and it would be wrong of me to just stop what I am doing and walk away.. and if I can get over any of this crap I am sure most can.. I will not be taking this down, I will not be changing the name or watching what I say.. all I ask is if you don't like what I put on here please just keep it to yourself and don't bother me as to tell the truth I don't care... I am me Just like I can not change who you are, you cant change who I am.. no point in trying I have tried for years and look at me now ... Photo over there--------->-------> so I cant do the imposable and I refuse to be unhappy any more ... I have been this way hiding watching what I say.. looking at people walking past just wishing I was them.. this has been so hard for me.. so please just respect me and don't hate me
I have so many bad things going on in my head right now, every part of my head is saying just end it.. no need to go on I am not sure if i can fight this off now i am trying so hard but it is not working my mind is being overtaken by dark thoughts that i have not had for so many years.. and all because I wanted people i love to be there for me and help me.... I have never asked for help before and when i do this happens... I just want things over if life is like this then i dont want it..... i dont need the pain any more the pain i have had hidden inside for so long is now getting worse i thought it was going to get better by talking to people how could i have been so wrong... i dont hate anyone never have never will but i dont understand people and there heads..sorry this is all over the place.. not sure if i will be keeping this blog going right now i dont want anything but we will see only time will tell where i will be tomorrow
I have had no sleep what so ever I feel like crap head is hurting what more can go wrong today, I cant believe I could have been so wrong about people I do wish I had never opened my mouth to anyone at all, I just wanted a little help my head has been so messed up for a long time and when I finally find the strength inside me to talk this is what happens. this is why I can never talk to anyone, my life has been all over the place for such a long time no one understands what I have been through they always think of there own little lives, I just wanted someone to trust that's all. This is just a bad dream I will wake up soon I hope, I am not sure what to do any more if I make people so unhappy I cant continue this, for me to be happy people around me have to be happy and this is not the
To say I am mentally ill is such a childish statement indeed, to tell the truth the more I think about it the more I have come to the conclusion that I must have been born with a higher intelligence than most, now I don't mean to be rude in any way what so ever, but if you think about it childish attitudes like this is what is wrong with the world today in conclusion to what I have just said, please read the relevant information, this you will find on the left side of this site <--------- that side just in case you got confused, now after you have read said relevant information you are more than welcome to debate any or all said information with me in an adult fashion, if you find this hard to do please inform me and I will see if I can get the information sent out to you in the post, please don't be offended by what I have said as I mean no disrespect to your opinions what so ever as this would be very childish of me, and I am not a child I am an adult (with feelings) just like every one else. Good night sleep well and remember god loves you....
Well we did not go fruit picking the baby is not to well today... I am going to keep a eye on him for the rest of the day.. and if no better he is off to the doctors... I am new at this baby stuff I do know what I am doing but when he gets ill I am a little confused as what to do or what it is... could it be his teeth, is he too hot, or is it something else? so many answers to one question.. he has a runny nappy.. a little off his food.. and just not a happy chap at all.. he is also dribbling lots and sucking his hand like mad.. now every place I have looked says teething but.. would this make his nappy green and runny? I don't like to see babies not well :(.... so we stayed in and the rest of the kids played with fimo and the two of the girls went into town.... I am a little disappointed with my daughter.. I never brought her up not to share.. I blame that on her mum.. and her influence on her.. I just wish I had more to do with bringing her up but I don't get the chance.. she is at that age now where friends are more important.. I guess we all have been there.. I know I have when I was young.. one day you open your eyes and look and only then you see what twiglet you have been... I was a big one lol
Will be going out soon :) think it is fruit picking today.. well it is free fruit after all.. if you eat and pick :) need to get some nice veg too.. I am going to make my veg pie tonight I think ... so all good.. I do need some new shoes so if anyone want to get me some size 7 pumps will do any colour I don't mind.. My legs are hurting so much from my boots.... also some new make up if you want... I do need to look good now.. not that I need it as I said before I am just fabulous... and you know it lol.... but I do need to update my photos soon so you can see that too :)
We where up at 5:45 with the little one, I use the word little very loosely.... :-) he got fed, bathed and then back to bed.. but this time we went back to bed too... think lucky we did I am not that bad right now..... lots to do over the next day or 3 but will start with today... I need to sort my face.. I don't feel right until this is done of a morning.... also need to start sorting the money saving part of this place out today....
Today has been so long not sure I have walked that much in a long time... I am so glad I check my spelling from time to time I just put wanked instead of walked lol.... any way back to this.....my legs are killing me they need a good long rest me thinks, I did see some nice shoes today and I should have got them now... I am so silly at times.. the boots I have are so heavy they hurt my legs after walking far.. but they look good... if I had a choice a nice pair of heals would be better but not sure my legs would feel any better after that lol.... well off to bed need to get my beauty sleep... not that I need that much because I look fabulous... and when you look fabulous you feel it to :) well off to take my face off :) and put some night cream on.... catch you nice and early tomorrow..... Night Night xx
this is so sad :( I look at this and think how lucky we are.. if everyone could just give a little.... miss that pack of fags.. or a beer.... its easy every little helps
Back now my god that was a hard day I am done in Legs are killing me... I don't like trains at all in any way.... seen sister and brother and little baby.... I even went shopping lol new tops :) not sure I shoud have do it but what the hell as I have been told you only live once lol got my daughter now until saturday :) so all good
I am up and dressed and just about ready to go and get the train I think its only about one and a half hours ride :) not looking forward to the walking, but I just might lose the last pound I wand to get rid of lol... now the problem is I have to stop myself from spending cash... and I know me so this will not be easy.. I will be able to update I hope when out so you can find out how it all goes if you want..:) go on you know you want too lol
its now bed time baby all done.. not sure if tonight went well people you thought you knew turn out so different oh well I guess that's just the way life goes I guess feel a little down now life should be easy but its so hard... why does it matter who you are inside!! going to bed night
once again a late night why do i do this to myself lol.... today has been an other good day.. it is very funny how you know people so well you can tell them something big over facebook lol....
well I need to get the baby and feed him and get him back to bed quick before he wants to start playing..will have to be done soon as I will be up early and I have a long day ahead of me.. going into town and cant spend any money this will be a hard day lol ok i
I have been very busy today updating the site, there is now a section for Transgender rights please take a look, other than that it has been a ok day not been feeling very good but I know what that is and I am sorting that now :) I am off tomorrow for a nice train ride to go and see family and get my daughter, I have not been on the train for ages.. so I best go dressed right not sure it would go down well where I am going lol... also I will be putting a money saving part to the site this is getting done over the next day or two... please look back at this as this could save you a lot of money like it has for me, I will also be putting offers up that I get every day this should save you a lot too... I will be doing this for the UK and the USA
Being Transgender or Gay is not a choice, being Transphobic or Homophobic is, so don't be a Twonk