I have bee very busy of late what with trying to sort out Christmas for the Children and fighting with my head and I have not had the time to update, I also got rid of my phone and now have an Android one and it does not support this site to update... I will do my best to keep it updated :) I also have moved everyone from my old Facebook over to my new one well all the people that wanted too... its to late for anyone else as they are now removed... I am still not sure what family think and I dont give a flying fuck any more what anyone thinks of me I am happy and thats what counts :) xxxx
It's now time for bed it has been a hectic day, the little one had his injections today 3 of them and he has not been good at all with them, we have had him crying all day, when I took him for them the nurse thought I was an aunty or something this was a little strange as I did not know what to say, I guess it's a complement in a way that I look totally female. I did try some new make up today and to tell the truth it's the best I have ever used. I will put a link to it on here tomorrow it's well worth a try.... Well I need sleep now night night x
Grandfather hits the big time after modelling women's clothes online
You're never too old for a bit of modelling, cross-dressing or even some Gangnam Style posing.
When Chinese grandfather Liu Xianping was jokingly asked to wear outfits designed by his granddaughter, Lv Ting, for a fashion shoot, he thought he was doing nothing more than helping her store.
Little did the 72-year-old realise that photos of him in women’s clothing would go viral overnight.
It may have begun as a joke, but the publicity caused a fivefold increase in sales of her Yuekou label.
Nothing seems to faze him as he strikes poses wearing miniskirts, tights, lace, capes and scarves.
Countering criticism, Mr Liu said: ‘Why is it unacceptable for someone like me to wear women’s clothes?
'Modelling for the store is helping my granddaughter and I have nothing to lose. We were very happy on the day of the shooting. I’m very old and all that I care about is to be happy.’
Miss Ting said: ‘We thought it was fun so we started shooting.’
Weighing just 50kg (7st 12lb), Mr Lui’s slender figure and long legs certainly do justice to his granddaughter’s designs.
One online admirer wrote: ‘He has such a good figure, especially those legs.
There are some sick people about, this happened in Liverpool
This has been a weekend from hell, to start with next door was growing pot just on 300 plants, the babies have been breathing in all the crap from it for the last year, as we thought we had damp but turned out they where using the house for that for the last year or so... I know some people will think we are stupid for not knowing the difference but if you don't smoke the shit how would you know, for the last year my little boy has had asthma and a cough and my other little boy has had to inhale this too, and he is 4 months old... We have to have them checked tomorrow for chemical poisoning, because of this the police kicked the door down and where in there until 5:30 this morning so I did not sleep my partner and babies where shipped off to their Nans for the night, this stressed me as I hate being away from my children, then to top all that I was driving my daughter home and the car broke down on the motorway, and I had to find other ways to get her the 100 miles home... All this on no sleep and lots of strong coffee, and when I sorted getting her home I was half way down the motorway when I get a call from my partner who is screaming down the phone that someone is in the garden trying to get in... Nothing I could do as I was miles away so again had to get her and the children shipped out to Nans house... So as it stands I and so fucked if anyone decides to even look at me wrong I will rip there heads off and shit down there necks... Should be fine tomorrow after sleep, but the guy who owns the house next door is in for it when I see him.. Can't wait to put his head through the wall of his house, no one and I mean no one hurts my family and gets away with it... Right think I best sleep now night night xx
Well all fun and games next door, the police have just kicked the door in and found 300+ pot plants, the smell is so bad I am feeling sick, I am not sure how people can smoke that crap!! On a plus side the police man is not bad looking at all... :) he knocked and come in and checked the rooms out and is coming back in a bit with the electricity guy.. As they think the bad men have been using our electricity.... If I can get a photo will post it... Not of the plants ;) x
I am sat 100 miles from home in the back of a camper van with my coffee egg sandwich and my Milky Way all on my own wondering what reception I would get if I went to see my family, who live about 20 minuets away, why should it matter what a person wears or what sex they are, there is so much more to life than that, I don't think people stop and think about what is going on around them, wars being fought, people with weeks, months to live, what is so important about how I look feel, it's about time the world opened its eyes and seen that everyone is different, what a sad life it would be if we where all the same... I for one don't want to follow the pack... I love being me and will die before I conform to someone's idea of normal... In my eyes I am normal that's all that counts... On a happy note, I look bloody great today... Xxx
I am feeling totally done in need sleep, I have a long drive tomorrow, head is a little messed up not sure if it is the tablets or just my head, have have never thought of myself as gay Bi but I am more and not starting to find males more attractive, this does not mean in anyway that I am going off girls in any way what's so ever...and I love my partner very much indeed it's just thing popping into my head... Now should I stop the tablets right away or is this something that has always been there.. Well head is confused to fuck.. And I don't do confused very well at all x
How are we so different
If different is just a thing.
If we all have certain features
What does different bring...
People filled with hatred that
Cant possibly see,
That there's not really differences
Between you and me.
Looks cant show difference,
If there just there to be seen.
If you don't look like someone else,
Why are they so mean?
If being different is what is wrong,
I would rather not be right.
And I would want to finish living
and die off into the night......
I so need to get ready today but think I need more coffee first, I am off on a little drive tomorrow to go and get my daughter.. Now the problem is what do I wear and this is a big problem as I can hide this... I have tried dont work lol I should not have to but I am juts a little worried as she is getting bullied as it is right now and I don't want to add to it... X
Trans woman sues U.S. federal gov’t over tasering by park ranger
THE GUERRILLA ANGEL REPORT — I first reported this story a year ago — a video taken by a cell phone clearly shows trans woman Brooke Fantelli being tased by a Bureau of Land Management Park Ranger, now identified as J. Peter, following a confrontation. Fantelli claimed the ranger tased her because ‘she used to be a man’ and is now suing the ranger and the federal government.
I wrote then the gist of what the video showed: ‘A trans woman standing still, outside of her vehicle, with her hands held high in the air, is tasered in the abdomen. Shortly after she fell to the ground, she was tasered again in the crotch.’
I also suggested that Fantelli didn’t appear to be an immediate threat to the two BLM rangers in the video — clearly something that did not warrant this kind of force. It appeared to be a BLM blunder and I suggested they settle the matter.
In the months that followed, there was no further news from the BLM or Fantelli on the matter, even though I searched a couple of times. And now, a year later, the lawsuit.
I have this feeling that we are missing quite a bit of other information that would give us a clue as to what exactly transpired in that incident. As a result, I no longer know what to think about this. We may have to wait for the outcome of the lawsuit.
My earlier report:http://lexiecannes.wordpress.com/2011/12/06/transgender-woman-tasered-in-crotch-by-blm-ranger
I have had to goto bed for a quick power nap, head is a little fooked I think it could be all the coffee, or the lack of something.... One can be sorted quick the other well x
I could be thinking too much my mind is doing over time today, Am I wrong putting all my crap on people.. I can't just wake up one day and think it will be ok to change now, I have kids and a partner to think about and I do not even come into this at all.... I should not have put things on people at all.. Everything needs to change a little I think... .... ..... Some things on my mind I don't want to talk about on here or anywhere else...
It's going to be a fun day today I have to go to my step daughters school to talk about homophobia, this should be interesting to say the least, what I can remember about schools is they don't like to listen..., lets hope times have changed. I should also be at the doctors this morning but not sure I will make that way too much to do..
I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who felt the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual. (yes, this actually happened)
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most: love.
I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends I'm a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.
I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to "teach me a lesson"
I am the gay male student that had to switch to another high school on my senior year, because I told my teachers that I was gay. One said that I was going to hell; the other wanted to cure me.
I am the person that can not act/be myself in fear of what others will think of me.
I am your best friend--the same person you grew up with and told your secrets to--the person you can't talk to any more, because I told you I'm homosexual.
I am your daughter and best friend, the girl you raised and loved. Now you won't talk to me because I shattered your dreams of ever having children, And you're afraid of telling your friends about me because of the embarrassment.
I am a person with the same fears, hurts, needs and wants as you. I bleed, I breathe, I understand, I live..... With our hearts open and our eyes closed we are all equal, living life the best way we know how, with what we have been given.
I am at my step daughters school tomorrow to talk about homophobia in the school, I hope this all goes well its something that needs addressing in most schools, I am lucky I have such a wonderful family that supports me but there are people out there who don't have this and it must be so hard for them, I know a child going through school right now who is BI and they are getting a lot of homophobic comments from people in there, this sort of thing must be stopped right away, this site does have a report button at the top of the home page and on the right hand side of this page, please use it if you need help or contact me direct and I can give you information of help in your area... Don't be silent stand up and make a difference..., and remember there is always someone who can help..... X
Morning well just had the police on the phone about comments left on here, THIS sort of thing is not acceptable I will always report comments like this, some things that have been said have hurt me and my family, this goes deeper than just comments, to say my head is a little bit messed up is an understatement, some things that have been said have stuck in my head and I can't shift them, I know this is what the person wanted so I will give you that one, but I have just got what I wanted your arse in a police station answering questions about what you have done, so lets think who got the better of who....... Yep you got it I did and this is because I am a stronger person and I put out a stupid shit trap and quess who got stuck in it lol ...., well comments are now closed down for now but you can contact me on my contact form on the left of the page... And remember all IP address are logged and will be used if we get any more crap... Well have a nice day
I have just used the report button on my site to report the comments, this now has gone a litte far, the police Are now involved... They have all the information they need to find the person, and they have told me this will be taken seriously, I will not be spoken to like this ever this ends now no more... And by the way every time I get a comment on here it logs the IP address of the sender oooops did I forget to say this before.. thank you for all the information it's all they needed I have been for the last two days working along side stop hate uk to get as much information as I could... I have now closed down comments in this blog until the person or persons have been delt with.. Remember if you have or are having hate problems use the link on lt right hand side of this blog... Repot them it will not stop until you take a stand.... Xxx thank you to everyone who has left lovely comments... X
In life there is only so much someone can take that edge of the cliff the end of a rope even the box of pain killers you look at wanting to end everything is this the way people want people like me to end up, do people LIKE you even for one minuet think what it is like I fucking bet you don't, you wake up every morning wanting to be someone or something you know deep inside you will never be fully, you even put on a mask that you know inside will not last you know it will start to fall as the day goes on, no matter what you wear it's always not good enough as what is inside is not what you want, knowing people hate you, don't talk to you, you worry every day about the effect you are having on people around you, your children your family and your partner, thinking that she will not want to be with you if you change, thinking every time you hold her she is wanting a man not a woman or a freak... I would like to say I think it will get better but I don't think it will... I have been told once a man always a man, this well I am starting to think might be true... I can't even look in the Mirror right now all I am seeing is a broken person, and I have not done this to my self, all I want is to be female... And I know I can't be fully so what is the point.... I can get up every morning put a mask on and hope no one will have a go at you, waiting for the next comment or rejection or back turned on me... .... It's not easy not at all so before anyone thinks freak queer gay bastard tranny anything like try and walk in my shoes for one day I bet you can't you would not last a second... So of you don't have anything nice to say fuck off I don't want to know, get the hell over it some people are Gay some are Bi Some are Trans... If you want to live life hating that's your choice, a bad one but yours.. Well must go now and remove the pain killers and the rope and even put a fence around the edge of the cliff because you will not ever fucking make me jump, hang or take.. So please remember this before you try and make someone's life hell, your the one thats a freak and one day will be the one that's not wanted too.
Just about ha enough now every where I look or what ever I do there is always someone or something stoping me and I just have had it now. All this is not worth it this blog site Facebook twitter and me included I have had it full stop...
Lets hope Obama get back into the White House, why would anyone want a Herman monster looking homophobe like Romney to run the country... Well I am watching and hoping.... Xx
Being Transgender or Gay is not a choice, being Transphobic or Homophobic is, so don't be a Twonk