Its been a hard day today up early again not sure why I wake up at that time every day... even weekends!! I have been trying to sort out a template for here but I guess I am not that smart :) I will keep at it me thinks.
I am starting to get a little down about everything I don't seem to be any different than I was 2 years ago, what ever way I look at it I think I will be trapped like this for a long time to come... I just cant see any way out... I know I am not the same on the inside as I am outside... I wake every day bursting then I just block it out and put it to the back of my head.. but this is getting so hard of late I don't think like a man never have.. I am good at putting a front on I have had lots and lots of practice at this and people don't see how much I am hurting inside ... I am not unhappy with the way my life has gone, I have the most wonderful girlfriend soon to be wife.. and 4 of the best kids in the world.. I would not change that for anything at all... I suppose I should just be happy with what I have and not what I want in life... I think as long as I live for them I can put what I want to one side.. to me they are the most important thing to me.. I dont matter that much.... AND WHERE IS MY PIZZA ITS 5 MINUETS LATE!!!
Being Transgender or Gay is not a choice, being Transphobic or Homophobic is, so don't be a Twonk