I have had a bad time of late my head has been all over the place I dont know where to go now from here, so I have decided to stop full stop and put myself in reverse, I am never going to escape the feelings I have they haunt me every day, every time I look in a mirror every time I talk every time I go out side. I am now at a point where I can not move forward, I have tried and tried but a big wall keeps hitting me in the face, I am now mentally worn out and I have decided going back is now the only way forward.
I can never change my mind or change how people think about me... I also do not want to put my family through this and what will come of it, I will one day be the person who I was born to be. if I lived where people did not hate or ridicule and I could walk out my door without having to see some people things would be so much different but this is not going to happen I cant see it in the future... so I need to protect my family from everything I can and I can not do this right now.
I will be keeping the blog going because I am still Transgender and people still need help and I will help until my least breath is taken from me. Remember this every persons situation is different... right must go the baby has done a big poo and its making my eyes water... xx
Being Transgender or Gay is not a choice, being Transphobic or Homophobic is, so don't be a Twonk